“I held my breath waiting to see you take another
But you did not
Where did you go?
Am i really alive without you?
Will we ever talk again?”
The lines from a poem by singer-songwriter Jhené Aiko from her latest book of short stories, poems, diary-like entries and sketches titled “2Fish” highlights the grim reality that death is inevitable. And when it is sudden and unexpected, it leaves the loved ones in deep agony.
Aiko lost her older brother Miyagi Ayo Hasani Chilombo to incurable brain tumor in 2012. To cope with insurmountable pain, she started with project MAP in September 2017. MAP denotes two meanings. First, it is an abbreviation for movie, album and poetry and secondly, it is a map that Aiko devised for charting her journey through her grief to recovery. On September 21, Aiko released a movie by the name “Trip” and two days later, she released an album by the same name, with 22 tracks. The third part of her project, “2Fish” book is also out now. The book contains Aiko’s writings since she began penning her thoughts when she was 16 years old.
Eternal bonding between siblings
Miyagi was just two years older to Aiko and they both shared a close bond. He introduced her to books and new artists, and inculcated in her “new ways of thinking”. When Miyagi was diagnosed with cancer, he turned to Buddhism and battled the illness for two years. He was a positive person who would always remain in high spirits. Unfortunately, he succumbed to the disease and this was heartbreaking for Aiko. After the demise of her brother, she started undertaking trips to distance herself from anything familiar that served as a reminder of Miyagi. She also started going on mental trips by using drugs, in a quest to reach a quiet place and be united with her dead brother. She developed a surreal connection with her brother and had a hard time recovering. Her actions became the means to escape reality.
The MAP connection
Project MAP helped Aiko process her internalized grief. For her album Trip, she collaborated with various artists like Big Sean and John Mayer. Toward the end, her daughter and father appear in the video signaling return to peace.
Aiko explained that while growing up, she didn’t have many responsibilities because of which she remained reckless and wild in her ways. Aiko was diagnosed with bipolar disorder once and has a history of depression. Through her book, she believes that she can influence other people’s lives who are also going through insurmountable grief.
Road to recovery
In the United States, one of the most common mental illnesses is major depression. In 2015, nearly 16.1 million adults (6.7 percent of the U.S. population) had at least one episode of major depression in their lifetime. Long periods of sadness, solitude, and feelings of worthlessness and helplessness might be dismissed as stress and can often go unnoticed. Among women, it can take an uglier shape in the form of premenstrual dysphoric disorder and postpartum depression. Women are also at twice the risk of being afflicted with depression as 12 million of them annually experience clinical depression.
Depression is a debilitating condition, which if left untreated can lead to serious physical and psychological complications. It is important to approach a therapist and get the condition diagnosed in time. Sovereign Health of Arizona is a leading behavioral health treatment center offering inpatient depression treatment to women. In addition to providing evidence-based therapies, our recovery programs also provide women with the necessary coping skills to improve overall health and acquire a better quality of life. For more information on the best depression treatment for women in Arizona call our 24/7 helpline 866-598-5661 or chat online with one of our representatives.